Saturday, June 16, 2007

Life is a Hell…

Didn’t write any thing from ages, may be bcoz didn’t had time for that…You know writing is something that comes from your heart and it needs time…you can write only when u r alone…I was surrounded by some one all that time…

Someone very near to me is not around anymore…I miss every bit of the time which we spent together…
Although Life goes on but it’s hard for me….very hard…

Trying to adjust with this cruel life…


Monday, January 30, 2006

Last Week in Riyadh KSA

I have been in some sort of transition period for the last couple of months, and at last I make a decision to move back where I belong to…Pakistan

It was never an easy decision for me, for people connected to me…but I am happy that I am ready for the change now.

I will never ever regret the time spent in KSA, a lot of memories associated with my stay here , I got a lot of experience and exposure while communicating with different nationalities, I feel that I am a better person. And above all the sights of Makkah and Madina will never fade from my memories. The first time I saw Qahba, i will never forget that stunning sight in my life.

I will also remember the plight of foreign workers here in Kingdom, the way they are mistreated mostly labors. I will never forget the proud call of a security guy "HEY HINDI". I will go along way with my memories here in Kingdom.

I am going to start a career from the scratch and I know that it will never be easy for me. But now I am more focused and much prepared Inshallah.

Wish me luck Guys.

One Week in Amman Jordan

Last week I spent in Amman Jordan for work purpose. I found Jordan a different country from other Middle East countries. It is a good example of a liberal society where people have some sort of freedom( This does not suggests by any means that it is the democratic country, but considering the middle east countries, still a lot better).

The people are nice and friendly. They are eager to work and prosper own their own and this is the basic difference in the approach, the mentality of people. Some times I feel that having much resource (oil) spoils the society somehow.

All in All a place to visit and remember…

Thursday, December 08, 2005

The Life of an Expatriate

The Life of an expatriate…….is a mix of sacrifice and selfishness. You can not know that which is more….Do the money have a direct connection with happiness? I guess Not, I heard people saying that they will be back once they get some money to lead a happy life but this does not happen, there is no end, no defined boundary of how much money you need to live a satisfied happy life. In fact happiness is a state of mind more than anything else.

A piece from a fellow blogger:

The life of an expatriate....the life of a perpetual nomad. No matter how long i stay, my roots never seep deeper than the superficial layer. It doesn't happen. I can try and pretend but even Canada doesn't feel like home. I know this about my life, that a county will never feel like a home to me, only the walls that contain me feel like home. These crisp foreign winds, the lush flora and forna, this is the impetus for what keeps me in awe of this country. Without even knowing, my body knows when winter comes... it's when the tip of my nose peels.... like a onion, later after layer after layer....i still do not know who i am.....

Expats, no matter what they pretend, but they are dealing with identity crises. After living most of the life as an "AJNABI", they even loose connection with their own country. The people in their home country don’t treat them the same way as before. The feel that there is some kind of hesitation in their attitude and its normal. When you are not around the people connected to you fill the gap with some activities or some new friends, they can't keep waiting for you to come and party with you. And when you travel back, you expect them to spend all their time with you as it was before, but it does not happen. Hence disappointment and again its selfishness on our part.

Another view point

I hold a Canadian passport, does that make my nationality Canadian?? But isnt that just a paper identity for me?? I mean what does it mean in my life to be that even something that is important to me...or is it simply the means to an end... So if not Canadian then what?? Am I Pakistani, but I have spent no time in Pakistan, I know nothing really about that country.. Should not there be more substance then simply having the same color skin as everyone in that country.... Neither Arab, I feel no love or affiliation for that land, my love is grounded in my family there and the memories of times spent there.. So I come full circle, what is my nationality?? In this whole world, there has to be a place I can call home and feel that I belong....

What you people think about this????????

Inter Sect marriages !!!

Another issue keeps striking in my mind, what if a Sunni boy marries a Shia girl or the other way around. Are there are any compatibility issues.

What do you think that how important it is that the marriage should be from the same sect typically in a combined family atmosphere?

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Cough Cough

Last night was terrible, could not sleep due to the bad cough and hard breathing. In the morning went straight to the doctor (although I avoid visiting hospitals). He advised the same medicine which I was using before, but I feel a lot better now, may be the psychological affect of visiting a doctor. The hospital was full of Pilipino nurses giggling around.

Came to office with a bag full of medicines. Have to take them all for two months, that’s what the doctor was saying but I know that as soon as I get well, I will forget about all the instructions….

Checked my mobile, few missed calls from office, and an unknown number, called that back, and a pleasant surprise, a nice friend was on the line…talked for a while…feeling relaxed…

Tuesday, November 29, 2005


Long time since I post something in my blog. The days are passing so quickly, Some times you feel that you are losing time with each day. Nothing much has changed for me, but for few.

- My Mom is here with me, enjoying a lot with her, I have a better understanding with my Mother than my Father, I don’t know why, may be coz I spent most of my life with my Mom.
- Have to make some vital decisions regarding my career in the coming month. Few options are there and I am thinking what to opt. I think the best thing is "ISTIKHARA", to seek Guidance from Allah when you can't figure out what would the best option for you.
- Today I was asked to visit Jeddah again for work; I have to choose some day in next week. I was not excited at all, traveling alone, staying in hotel for day or two. I am sure I will get bored there. These days I want to spend most of time with my Mom until she is here. But……..
- At office, things are getting harder day by day, a lot of projects to handle, deadlines are closing, I never had that much burden before. I think I loose interest, I need Vacations. Sum days out from routine to get relaxed, May be on Eid Holidays, Thinking to visit Dubai. Nice Vibrant city.

That’s the latest from me. I could not write (passing through a dull period) that does not mean that I am not reading others. Keep writing All of U.


Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Last Nite...

Last Nite I started reading a book and read it till the end in one go, I always try to keep some part for the next day but …. I can't resist…

Could not sleep until 4, I don’t know….my mind starts at nite and so many thoughts came across just when I try to sleep…

Surprisingly my Father came to my room, asked me if I was okie, He thinks that I am worried about something, may be he is right…I told him every thing is just fine, just trying to sleep…

And then, may be at 5 in the morning, I walked straight to my Fathers bedroom, got him up and occupied his bed, all in unconsciousness …I cant remember how I reached his bed and why….

Got up late and as usual reached office late…

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

First Day @ Work

Got up early today…But still late, I don’t know how people reach at time. Every time I get in, I see every one in their offices like they are there from ages. Every time I try to avoid their looks but they keep staring. I can't help it, this is by default, and even if I try to come early I can't. Now every one in office started to understand the fact…

Spent most of the time in vacations sleeping, went once to near by desert for a Bar BQ party, I was not my idea and also I went there half heartedly, but it was quite a fun. The mystery of desert and the fire makes the place more charming & mysterious…Sitting close to the fire and looking into it… Saw some tremendous firework on Eid Nite.

First day @ work, a bit boring, every one is coming around greeting others. I am doing the same…but at the receiving end. I am not the kind of person reaching others, greeting people. Don’t know why…

Have to start again from where I left before Eid. Trying to remember what I was doing...

Back 2 work. Laters.

Monday, October 31, 2005

Last Day @ work Before Eid

Last Day in Office before Eid Holidays…Damm Boring we have 7 days off…Too much…thinking to travel in these dayz…

Anyways Eid Mubaarak to All…

Saturday, October 22, 2005


Saturday again, the start of a new week. Today I have to submit a project by noon, though it's done but still not satisfied.

This weekend was a bit different, had AFTAAR Dinner at our place. Some family friends were invited.

Still thinking………

Wednesday, October 19, 2005


3:25 PM. I should pack my stuff and leave the office now, but what would I do there, No activity. Some times is feel that I am wasting my time & energy here, I have so many plans but I can do nothing while I am here. I need to take a bold decision, and I feel that it's coming soon.

Today much inspired by a quote.

"It’s the one step you take, when you think you can't but you do, that’s make the difference in your life."

The Pace of life sucks…

Monday, July 25, 2005


I am In Abha !!!

Its very cloudy and soon it will start raining...

I Love the Place ...Enjoying alot...:)

Saturday, July 16, 2005

WHY ?????????????????????????????????

After the names of the suspect suicide bombers in London Attacks were announced, my mind says WHY??????

How these young people, living normal lives, having families, grown up in British culture involved in such acts against their own society, where their own friends, family members are protected and living a peaceful life.

My heart goes out for their families who will suffer for the rest of their life in fact the whole Muslim community residing in UK.

The world must find a solution to address the root cause of these problems as no security in the world is tight enough to stop a suicide bomber, you must see why these people are ready to sacrifice their life…………

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Wallah Jeddah Gair !!!!

I am in Jeddah right now !!!

Last night i visited Jamjoom Centre, Coornish and the beach resturant Lecoste.

There is a sense of freedom out here and i am enjoying my stay ... You will feel that the people ae more happier and satisfied.

But above all still missing Riyadh :(

Thursday, July 07, 2005

London Vs Paris

Yesterday the news came as a surprise for all. London city won the Olympics Bid for 2012. It was real shocking news for French people. Paris was so confident that they already started campaigning in public. Last time when I visited Paris every monument having displayed "PARIS 2012" with the Olympics logo on it.

For London it’s a day for celebration, as they beat the long time rivals "France". Both the countries and their people are in a sort of competition for long time now. The French people normally don’t like the British and the same in the other side, that’s why you will see the French love for their language and culture.

Anyhow I would like to have your opinion, what do you say, who deserves the event?


Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Bahrain - Full of Surprises

Manaama – Bahrain

Bahrain is too small in area but full of surprises, specially a person visiting from Saudi Arabia.

I had to organize a training session for our sales team there; otherwise it's hard to convince people about visiting Bahrain specially my family!!!!

I could not believe that a few hundred KM could change the culture, the life style all together. Bahrain is a little more open to my taste. I visited some western countries too and there you have to find some thing you need but In Bahrain every thing is available in your room. It's so sad that the place became a pleasure hut for the people around the gulf. That’s why it is called a mini bar of Gulf specially KSA. And the officials are doing nothing to improve this bad image, in fact they are promoting this so called tourism.

I had a very tough schedule there and did not found any place in Bahrain worth visiting, except the Coornish but it was also no better then Dammaam or Jeddah's coornish.

In Hotel you will receive calls from girls asking you about your current status "Faadil Wala Mashghool" and every time my answer was mashgool….In sleeping….:)

I am not a religious man, having small knowledge and even smaller practice ("Amal"), but I found it inhumane.

Disappointed from a so called muslim country….

2005 – A Traveling Year

2005 – A Traveling Year

For me, the Year 2005 started in a traveling mode and still it goes on and on. This Year I have experienced and explored many new places worldwide. It's nice feeling to see the life style of people living in different parts of the world. Since I could not find any thing else to write and as my friend (who inspired me to start this blog) told me that now you started the blog, you have to write something, so here I am with the glimpses of my travels in year 2005.

Jan 2005 – France (Lyon-Paris)

Basically it was a business trip with a training session. We started our travel from Riyadh to Paris in nice but a bit chilly weather. We reached Lyon via Paris after a day and half in the travel. As expected it was very cold in Lyon.

About Lyon

Lyon is historical city of France yet becoming a business hub. Lyon is a bit under rated as compared to Paris but I found Lyon a clean, organized and peaceful city with Twin Rivers adding more value to its charm. We stayed 5 days in Lyon and we were so busy that we could not manage to explore all the parts of lyon but we visited quite a few.


I heard a lot about Paris before but this was the first time I was visiting Paris. I had a very high profile in my mind about the city but it did not come to my expectations. Paris is an overcrowded, unorganized city but is has a lot to offer for art loving people with its historical monuments and traditional look. Since I was alone in Paris and nothing to do I tried to explore most of the places. Eiffel Tower is heart of Paris, and the best time to visit is at night. I encountered a lot of couples trying to protect each other from this cold J ….normal in their culture.

The People

I heard about French people being arrogant but its not true at all, in fact they are helpful.

The Food

The worst thing I experienced in my Life is the Food. No matter what ever you will order, it comes undercooked. L

Our hosts were very kind and they tried their best to get us familiar with all kinds of French food----mostly uncooked.
And being the guests we were obliged to respect their feelings, but in this process I ate alot of stuff which I could not imagine off. J …it was really an experience of my life.

But we take our revenge, when they visited us in Riyadh. Hahahah

I am trying to find some snaps of my trip. Soon I will upload.

Have a nice time...

Monday, July 04, 2005

The very first Blogg !!!

At Last I Created a Blogg of my Own !!!

I Always wanted to do that, to share ideas, thoughts but ........

Anyways Here I am and hope to continue writing, It helps alot :)